Carnibored

For now, the last Carnibored blogpost will end with the Irish Root Beer from BJ's Restuarant and Brewery. Unfortunately, there is no picture but rest assured it's a PYT. Home brewed root beer, butterscotch schnapps, Bailey's cream, and Jameson Irish Whiskey. wow. Basically tastes like a chocolate root beer float with a hint of whiskey. wow. I class this as a meal in of itself because it's a bit heavy and could be drank as a dessert. I use this as a meal to spotlight the lengths that we go to enjoy the act of eating and drinking. I'm not a lush by any means as my social drinking has been severely moderated in recent years. Which is a good thing. But this drink here is good stuff.

Well, it's been more than a month and this Delorean seems to be out of Plutonium. I've kind of slacked off on the blog though my intake the past week or so has been about this same, if not a little bit better than usual. In part because we resolved to try to eat and home more. Overall, this has been an interesting experiment and certainly not a failure in the sense that it certainly has kept my intake and my health on my mind. The hurdle as always is not knowing, but doing.

It's odd to think I've been busy that past month in some form or another. Time seems to have warped a bit recently and I'm not sure how to feel about it. Is the time change a good excuse? I dunno.

This ebb and flow thing of being 30 is certainly striking. Not in the sense of the number or of feeling old but rather being older and dealing with the things that go along with that. And yes, achey bones, big gut, and resposiblity make one older. I'm sure there is some nifty web widget that can tell you how "old" you are because of your lifestyle and whatever passes for pseudo-pseudo science these days.

I was reading an issue of Alternative Press the other day with AFI on the cover and was struck by how old I feel. Never been a huge fan, I like their song on Madden 06 and Davey Havok's side band, Blaqk Audio (kind of 80's dance-goth-synth stuff) but was never interested because I wasn't "cool" enough to like them and now they are cleaned up and spiffy looking (posing for clothes ads) and this doesn't bother me. They talk about how they don't fit any longer in the old punk genre (cool kids are tearing are probably tearing AFI patches off their Gap Denim jackets right about now) and are looking to grow.

The younger me would have pissed at this change and made fun of them but I get it. I get it they way I get Hum's "Stars" and the lady from Private Practice make me think it would be cool to drive a CTS for a second. We get along the way we know how. Hum probably made more money off this commercial than they did with any of their albums. And the songs still rocks, the kick drum/drum fill that starts the first chorus is what made me realize I would never be a drummer, and that's a good thing. It's a beautiful moment and I hold that in my memory bank of things that make my heart flutter.

Other moments:

Carol and I seeing the trailer for The Texas Chainsaw Massacre years ago and left with a moment like that. Not because it was a good movie, in fact it was kind of a piece of shit but because of the trailer. This Mortal Coil's cover of Tim Buckley's "Song to the Siren," possibly one of the most beautiful songs to ever written was used and it made the trailer.

Again, us seeing the trailer for Adaptation with Queen and David Bowie's "Under Pressure" backing the quick cuts of Cage, Streep, Cooper and Bryan Cox. The kind of trailer that makes you want to run out and make something of your life, live your dreams, be remembered. I enjoyed the movie but not as much as the trailer.

more recently, the long trailer for Terminator: Salvation set to Nine Inch Nails' "the day the world went away" with Christian Bale screaming, "If we stay the course, we are dead! WE ARE ALL DEAD!" wow. The film was flawed but it isn't often when you get to see a star being born and that star is Sam Worthington.

Seeing Mogwai open a show with "Sine Wave" and a sample of MLK's "I have a dream" speech at La Zona Rosa. It was a defining moment for sure. I remember thinking, "these are the sounds that will welcome me into the afterlife." Music has not sounded the same since.

Likewise, for seeing Pearl Jam at the Verizon with Carol. A huge crowd drunk, in tears singing along to Black and it meaning so many different things to so many different people but nevertheless uniting everyone for a moment.

Riding a coach from Galway to Donegal, Ireland with Carol. Staring at the countryside, the small roads, small cars, the livestock, U2 playing on my iPod. A moment that wasn't so planned or as cliche as it might sound. My longstanding U2 issue aside (subject of an upcoming blog) it endeared them to me.

This has got me thinking, more for another blogpost.

so, I don't know, how do I wrap up this blog? Living in the moment always sounds nice but its an impractical and flawed philosophy, but maybe remembering the moment works. You can never recreate these things or plan them and decide how they will impact you, they just do. I can remember the moment, how I feel when I look at these pictures of food or what i was thinking when I ate these meals. And though the result of this will be flawed and will never live up to it's trailer as least I know what it felt like. At least I know that I don't have an excuse for treating my body like a waste dump. Maybe i should get out and start moving more, should go out and throw a to football to myself like I did my in room when was a kid, set up the plastic trashcans in the front yard and tackle them, i don't know.

I felt a heavy sadness when I watched Lions for Lambs recently. Aside from a sterling acting showcase from Redford, Cruis, and Streep it's subject matter moved me. Watching Derrick Luke and Michael Pena live and die by their beliefs and hope is pretty inspiring. Not to join the army but live a life of purpose.

I hope one day, to think the same of myself.
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So I bid adieu to Carnibored for now. Thanks for stopping by and thanks for your comments.

weapons of fiction is still up and running and will continue to post there, so check it out if you got time.

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thanks.
r.